I find myself sitting in the Grove of the Unicorn waiting. From what I've heard, I could be waiting for a while. I hope not, because if she likes waiting games then I lose.

In the days since the vigil, I found myself wondering exactly what the Unicorn was. Gizette seemed to half-worship the thing and all of my aunts and uncles of Amber were perfectly satisfied to let it choose the old kings successor. Odd considering that most of them don't seen to agree with the decision now. What made them think it was fit to decide in the first place.

At any rate, not knowing much about the Unicorn, I decided to wander down to the GOTU (Short for grove...) and check out things myself. Actually I came her to lop its head off, but who knows, maybe it keeps a diary or something on it that I can read later on. Probably not, but coming all the way here and waiting so long just to kill the thing seems kinda obsessive. After all it's not like I'm bloodthisty or anything. There just happens to be alot of people who really need killing. Who am I to argue.

I wonder if it's a god of Amber or something. If it is, can it be killed? If it can than I certainly have the tool for the job.

Oh well. Some little girl showed up as the unicorns messenger. If it had sent out it's receptionist in the first place maybe the elders wouldn't have taken it so seriously. I guess I'll have to book an appointment with the god of Amber in advance next time. I did learn something though, she's quick, that pattern girl. She doesn't bleed too. I learn that last part during my second meeting with her. She somehow knew I was looking for her and decided to grace my presence again. I don't think she'll show up again.

After giving up on the Unicorn, I met up with Gizette and company on their way to an army. It was apparently raised by Gerard, but I just found that out on the way. Funny what my House feels the need to keep from me. I wonder if mother knew about it? Oh yes and as a not to my self, Thomas has eyes all over the place. That should make it easy should I ever want to get word to him privatly.

I have got to find this shadow of super badasses that Gerard and Genben know about. First things first, however. Uncle Gerard wants me to lead these people against Genben. Quality as opposed to quantity, eh. Ok then, it seems like Dierdre was kinda expecting this too. Jokes on me, I guess. During that meeting I wondered who else was out there waiting for me to go military loco on Amber, because Gerard would not have been on my original list of suspects. I kinda wondered why he couldn't have just grabbed his brother at any time and ended this whole game. I'm pretty sure Genben trusted him enough. All it would have taken is as simple slap on the back. Oops, I didn't meant to accidentally knock you through that stome wall.

To think that Gerard would have gone so far with is opposition against Benedict only to give in at the sight of Eric's imminent demise. It's not like you couldn't have seen it coming. I mean that's what the king does. It's his 'thing'.

In what I think of as an uncharacteristic move on my part I decided to offer up myself in trade for Eric. Stupid Gerard for being so weak, at least this will answer some of my questions and suspicions. I expect that he'll refuse, because gaining me doesn't really grant him anything. If Eric can take my place the army would just get a competent commander who can actually take them through shadow. Also as far as hostages are concerned, I don't actually make a very good one. The only family member who actually cares about me enough to be intimidated by my captivity is Gizette, and she doesn't have any say in the invasion. If he instead agrees, then there are forces at work that I do not know of. It would mean that I am more important that I realize. If there is one thing the people who would use you don't want you to know, it's how important you are.

Betrayal! I never would have thought he would do such a thing. And for what? To murder someone? To satisfy his anger? I must say that I never thought my killing Benedict would be justified. Funny, is it not, that now I no longer want to kill him. Now I wish to hurt him.

Death, decapitation, and incapacitation on my part. I plunged my blade into his body, but the cost was quite hight. I wonder how Gizette will handle this. I believe my side victorious, but what a grim day. So foul and fair a day, and the like.

-- GhenkiTseng - 14 Jul 2007

Awesome!

-- BenBernard - 14 Jul 2007